This Is How I Feel

Everything is different.

Nothing is the same.

Though the paths I take,

on this earth,

they stubbornly remain.

While going through my day,

I can’t help but think and ponder as

I sub-consciously look around

for you—

in everything I say and do.

Now that you’re gone away,

we each and separately make our mind’s list

of all the rights and wrongs—

all those things that we said and completed

strictly during your time.

Though for me, I find, that

keeping the same routine

is still a very good way

to keep me on my path of peace

for each morning’s sunny ray.

But vast emptiness and

missing you has really taken hold—a new

access road–which now has taken it’s abode

and holds my tears at bay.

For everyone who wants to

know the way in which I feel,

let me say, without a doubt that

my senses have declared

a VACANCY and great desolatation

in the center of my being

for which, I guess, this feeling

always shall remain…

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7 thoughts on “This Is How I Feel

  1. Pingback: This Is How I Feel | ursulawalkerdotcom

  2. I know the hurt,pain and that empty feeling in your heart.The of God and trusting in him he will see you through this. Think of Chris in his loving arms and at peace. Love you I’m hear for you guys. I’ts ok to cry,let your feelings out. 🙂 lvu

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  3. Dear Sister,
    I too understand loss. I know that God is still a comforter and heals broken hearts. Although there will always be a void it does get better with time. Love is eternal for our children. Let the memories. laughs, and tears flow. We all love you and stand with you in prayer. Pam

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  4. Someday, new joy, light and life – but for now, deep pain, loss, sudden separation and inexplicable void.

    “He comes to see us through, He comes to see us through; when trouble and perplexities assail. He comes to see us through, He comes to see us through; the glory of His presence, now comes to see us through”.

    You are loved by countless many. Most of all, you are safe and secure in God’s Divine love and light, even in inexplicable pain and loss.

    See us through Lord,
    Oh Lord, see us through.

    Missing you and Richard,
    David Sturdivant

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